Friday, April 11, 2008

Sajal Is alone...and crying

Blogging is a world where u can freely express yourself,no restrictions,no boundaries.Time to check out the authenticity of the statement I suppose.I had often heard about, and occasionally witnessed people sharing an utmost joy or letting out their extreme bursts of frustation.Well I never did anything of this sort,probably never had such an opportunity.

Today,its different.I am in a really,really(assume a million more reallys) bad mood and wish to let out my anger,my hatred and all my emotions.Here is the world of blogging,totally unbarred and I wish to utilise the previlege.I am afraid I cant discuss about the reasons behind me being in this mood,all I want is to pour out some of the emotions which are threatening to rip me apart.Probably,the reason isnt that big or significant anyway,but as it happens,many things are contributing in their own small ways to make these moments really miserable for me.

Its the 11th of April,in fact 12th is about to arrive as i pen down these lines.The month of May is not far and I somehow,constantly get reminded of the May-07: some of the worst days of my life,with the most difficult I had to face.Its said that man has the ability to bear anything and everything,but the lesson May07 taught me was that this pain,at times can cross the limit of tolerance.The present issue isnt that big and I may very well get over all this very soon,which is nothing in comparison to the memories which for some strange reason,are trying to forge a link with the moments am living,at this moment.

I want to hate some people I have loved more than most things.One moment,I want to cry,shout at someone in superior tone,the other.Probably what is most disturbing is the fact that I am 'actually' feeling a sort of rage towards a few people,with not much of a fault of theirs.As I said,too many things contribute in their own small ways to make the matters worse.Few bonds which have been pillars of my existence,my overall happiness, seem quite meaningless,sort of worthless.Its like am hating loneliness,and begging that everyone left me alone.Obviously there are a few logics guiding my behaviour.I feel let down,unimportant,insignificant..(again...u can assume a million such phrases here).

Maybe,its just a matter of few hours when things will actually improve with a bunch of bloody explanations coming to the rescue.But the effect of all this is threatening to leave a long lasting mark somewhere.An irony is that the main reason behind the trauma of May-07 is the lone comforting factor in this depressing night.Few minutes of conversation with someone, actually are imparting the desired strength to withstand the worst of the worst.All in all,the lanes of memory seem more like a black hole...threatening to pull me into a void I fear to enter,I really do...

To summarise...Sajal is very depressed,really angry,too disturbed,highly frustated....but above all....very lonely,very sad....

Monday, April 7, 2008

KYA HINDI AISI BOLA JAATI HAI -Part 2

Here i present you an account of some really weird stuff.....kya hindi aisi bola jaati hai :)

Some people at engineering colleges do look like they should already be working in an MNC(age factor!!).But once when we friends came face to face with one such face,MK uttered those 'prophetic' words: "20-25 saal droupout hai ye ladkaa".I dont think I need to mention our reactions to it.It was during lunch time that MK gave us another reason to laugh,laugh and keep laughing."duniya ki har insaan humaari maa hai,uska mulya dekho".Thank god he didnt use his favourite 'daam' instead of mulya,I fear to think what i could have meant then.And ya,most lines of his anyway neither make any sense nor are related to the prevailing situation.
Consider the examples:
"tum log pe mat jaao"(can it mean ANYTHING??) or "kya janm deta hai in log"referring to a large group,comprising only of males(replace 'kya' by 'kaise' to get some idea of what he meant).Fata is such a nice and simple word,but when MK pronounces it as 'faataaa',the effect is hilarious.
Some of the expressions this fundoo friend of mine used while flirting with someone:
"tu itna zyaada mera fan ho gaya"..."tu to dhanee gharaane ki fal phool khaane waali ladki hai
'(I actually fell on the ground when I went into a burst of laughter at this one).Also when his flirting was well reciprocated by the girl,who also happened to be my close friend,these are the words his hindi gifted me:
"Tera friend mast hai,sudharne waali nahi hai"

Now just assume a character Miss X.Actually she is the one who asked me to write something on this whole hindi issue;as she was more than impressed by it(movier are not the only place gals are impressed by stupidities I realise).I wont be mentioning the name of the girl,and will call her Miss X.Some of the weird sentences which our literary genius managed in this episode:
"Annie mast ladki hai,Miss X ko fix kara diya"...."aaj Miss X dinner pe aane se majjaa aa jaayega".Actually the fact is that Annie didnt 'fix' anyone,it was just that we were getting to meet someone through a common friend.And when Miss X was around,MK kept coming up with wonders in his own unimitable style:
"bye bye de denge"
"ye bhi tujhe paneer dikhti hai"(referring to a non-paneer dish served at a dhaaba)..."tumne aisa aisa boli hai"......As my friend Gauri(from Gzb,u must remember by now)remarked once,"MK ek line mein infinite baar gender change karta hai"....not far from being true,one feels :)

Another evening where we had great fun on the roads of IIT,teasing each other,and playing around like small children,MK's genius remained a special treat.
"marenge na tamasha ek"(am sure it was more than a slip of tongue)
"Shilpika to gaya" (god bless the verb-subject agreement)
"aise behenship thode na hota hai"(another one of my favourites)
.....and the memorable...."tu to moti hai,tu charbee khaati reh"

His contribution was really significant in making the trip a grand success,with the 'innocent' linguistic mistakes playing the main part.I could give such a detailed account a couple of months after the event as I maintained a record of these funny ones in my diary during the trip :)....

But my intention is not to make a mockery of my friend. Actually these statements are indicative of his innocence and the fact that he doesnt make needless attempts to hide his shortcomings in front of his friends....after all,who else will help him improve.And we know that we dont have to just laugh at these comments but always try and rectify them and help our friend.Anyway,am pretty sure of MK speaking fluently in the language one day....he has great learning attitude,caring and helpful friends and above all....an 'actual literary genius' of this language in his friend circle :P
Till then lets just enjoy it as it comes :)

KYA HINDI AISI BOLA JAATI HAI- Part 1

Hello everyone
Today I am here to tell you a story.The title of my story is:" Kya hindi aisi bola jaati hai"
Once upon a time,in the campus of IIT-KGP,a group of friends had a great time.In the group was a really special person.Well,the special person was Sajal,who is sharing a special experience with you.But there was a comparatively less special person as well,who contributed hugely in making those days memorable.

Ok,now lets come to plain and simple description.The days at Kshitij(techfest- 08 at IIT KGP)are unforgettable for me,the reasons being innumerable.The overall experience of participating in events,attending the lectures and enjoying the struggle of life in minutest of aspects,it was fun really.I got to meet a very special friend of mine for the first time personally(cyber friends u know).There was a duration of few hours,where in the course of events,i reaffirmed the faith,not in front of others but in my own eyes,that am indeed living the life of a really good human being(and a friend).In a line,the days spent there are too close to my heart.

Now coming to the 'Hindi' thing(finally).Something which contributed in its own unique fashion,to the humorous aspect of the experiences.Well,no surprises if a college guy calls a 'hot' girl 'qayamat'(among his friends),but its when someone,actually,assumes that Qayamat means 'body'(???),u realise that he is no ordianry person.Gentle ladies and gentler men,meet my friend,Mrityunjay Kalita,who holds the distinction of getting 95 in hindi in boards.presenting the real picture before u,MK's lack of hold over the language,which incidentally happens to be the mother tongue of most of us,gave plaenty of chances to laugh our hearts out.His question "qayamat matlab body hai naa?" happened in the canteen of our college.Let us now focus on some of the experiences at KGP,some of the weirdest comments one will ever hear.

(to be contd.....its going to be super fun now!!)

Sunday, April 6, 2008

simply....I HATE REMIXES!!

NOISE...noise is any kind of unpleasant sound;any pleasant sound falls under the category of music.These are just vague definitions ofthe two terms,but however specific one tries to be,there can never be a well defined boundary between the two.

Let me come to the topic of my concern,i.e Bollywood music.Over the years,innumerable melodies have been composed and the process continues till date.This is a field,which has witnessed incredible creativity and variety with constant experimentation.A recent revolution in the field of music albums(filmy and non-filmy) is the concept of remixes.Well,the concept, in no way is recent,but am talkingabout the kind of evolution it has undergone recently.

Starting with my personal opinion about this 'Remix Thing'...words actually can never do justice to the kind of HATRED i have for this whole thing,the way i loathe any kind of appreciation towards a work which simply deserves to be thrown into a dustbin.I am not going to give a moral lecture regarding the vulgarity in videos or something,am talking about the very concept of remix.I dont care if a disco number of 60s is remixed and presented as a soft romantic number...REMIX STILL SUCKS!!

So,why such harsh feelings?
I HAVE NO PROBLEM IN ACCEPTING MODERNISATION OF SONGS OF YESTERYEARS,ONLY IF ITS DONE AS A MARK OF RESPECT TO THOSE COMPOSITIONS,AS A TRIBUTE TO THOSE WHO COMPOSED IT.No issues in appreciating the scene where a few young ones ask a didi to return their ball,singing comic modifications of some songs(MR.INDIA) but just cant tolerate a crap where the incomparable voices of Asha ji,Geeta Dutt,Lata ji or Shamshad begum is replaced by a cacophony and a melody substituted by the worst possible sound track.In short,makeover is acceptable,but it has to be a "work of art",and not the "murder of art".

I,myself being somewhat a person with an artistic insight,do appreciate the fact that a SINCERE composition of a person is like his own offspring,can you even imagine your child being deformed in front of your eyes,is it possible for you to remain unaffected by it.Some masterpieces which were created only after a lot of honest and hard work went into it, with a pure and artistic perspectiveguiding the composer,are being tereated with disrespect....at times even with disdain..WHAT A SHAME!!

All this because you appreciate it,you are willing to pay for it.All the stuff about the need to move along,and the modifications being a need of hour,are pretty much meaningless.These developments in the field of remixes actually bear a testimony to the fact that the popularity of these numbers is still much more than most recent ones.Also the public loves it the way they are,without any need to go about killing the beauty of the hummable ones just because they can be played in discos etc in their modified version.Actually this nonsense of an explanation is often given by one of my close friends(already been mentioned a couple of times in my blog)."remixes are made so that the soft numbers of yesteryears become fit enough to be played in parties and discos"...already stated,i find it NONSENSE...they are not made for parties,leave them the way they are....we dont want people dancing to "jaine wo kaise log they jinke pyaar ko pyaar milaa".

Actually what worries me is the lack of respect that the generation of today,my generation,has for 'art and artists',more so if they dont really fall in this 'new' category.There is not a single community on orkut against 'remixes' but plenty which love it.Such things actually hurt me,i have cried more than once in arguments related to this 'old-songvs new-song stuff".What is desired is more of respect for the sincere artists,irrespective of their generation....and things sure will improve....
and as for the remixes.....they suck,no doubt :)
ek shayar ki kuchh lines share karta hoon(the shayar is me anyway):

कल शमशान में देखा था
शायर लेटा था कब्र के ऊपर
और उसके नाम को मिट्टी तले
दफ़ना दिया था ज़माने वालों ने....

just hoping that this wont happen....for a better future,we need to give our past its due respect....:)
thats it friends....